There never was much hope...

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-12-17T02:30:00

2008-12-17T07:31:20Z

My friends page has been so empty... without you :-(

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-12-05T19:00:00

2008-12-06T00:02:22Z

I stumbled upon an interesting concept. While looking for storm sound mp3s for my ipod to help me sleep, I discovered a DVD iso that is nothing but a black screen and has rain and thunderstorm sounds... but when there is lightning, the screen actually flashes to simulate the lightning a split second before the thunder.... its rather convincing... and soothing. If anyone is interested in it, I'll link you to the torrent.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-11-01T18:26:00

2008-11-01T22:33:02Z

The simplest thing sometimes makes me really happy... I bet a lot of people take it for granted. Having an IM or txt conversation initiated with me... and not by me. I guess I don't mean with everyone though... there are a lot of people out there I couldn't care one way or another about that... but some, it makes me smile even though it's just a small silly thing.

... he's a friend of mine.

2008-10-28T16:59:27Z

Ok ... someone linked me this... and I won't lie, it made me happy.

I hope it can brighten your day as much as it did mine.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-21T06:12:00

2008-10-21T10:14:49Z

We think of each other as we drift to sleep at night... What more validation do we need to know its something worth happening?

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-19T03:28:00

2008-10-19T07:30:35Z

Tonight is the kind of night... that I'd like to have most every night be like.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-17T05:20:00

2008-10-17T09:23:55Z

Tonight was a good night. Talked to my favorite person at quite some length... on here and on the phone. Got to see pictures of said person's new hair, and she is beautiful as always. Did Gruul's, Mag's and Kara... all fucking ridiculously easy and quite fun. Did sick dps... 2nd in Gruul and Mag. 1st in Kara. I <3 my Liz and my huntard. MUWAHA Oh yea... and I <3 Magnum... both of them!

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-14T04:30:00

2008-10-14T08:34:18Z

you thought it was gone
so together we hunted
and Shazam! it's there

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-12T00:33:00

2008-10-12T04:37:07Z

I'm really down right now. And its not all just because of ... that. I still haven't adjusted to moving. I feel pretty cut off out here.. and I dont know anyone except my new coworkers. I'm lonely beyond lonely. Even moreso now. I want to go back. I'm sorry about how things went last night... especially if I got rather pushy... its hard for me. I'm in a state of uncomfortable numbness right now... and I wish it could stop.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-11T01:49:00

2008-10-11T05:50:29Z

: - (

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-09T16:49:00

2008-10-09T20:50:20Z

Am I close to what I've wanted for so long? I can't tell... everything is clouded.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-08T08:58:00

2008-10-08T13:00:08Z

Ewww how I loathe mornings... I'm always so tired... and hungry... and tired.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-06T02:31:00

2008-10-06T06:35:23Z

I look for answers but only ever find more questions. Does the truth exist or is it just eluding me? So I close my eyes hopeful of forgetting, only to see with terrifying clarity. In the end I can't get you off my mind. I never want to. I end every day with blind hope that tomorrow could be the day. Its the drive that keeps me struggling on. It's all I've got and I'd have it no other way.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-02T22:07:00

2008-10-03T02:08:22Z

I so badly want to take action on something... but I'm so afraid of the outcome.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-10-02T16:37:00

2008-10-02T20:40:44Z

So if I didn't mention swarfega in here after saying I was going to and then giving her a hard time about never talking about me... to which she apparently already had... I'd be lame. So that, is the girl that needs to lose her bum boyfriend/companion/whatever and hang out with me instead. And you know why? Well, I don't have enough time to chronicle the reasons... Thats like a 28 part series (at least) and I don't have hours to dedicate to it right now... gotta get the house all cleaned up and stuff. -AMW

PS: I hope you read this... I hope that other person reads it too muahahah

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-09-10T04:53:00

2008-09-10T08:56:51Z

Best quote ever...

"... the land down under. We're gonna get drunk with Russell Crowe and headbutt some goddamn kangaroos."

Google Chrome

2008-09-03T06:17:31Z

I'm posting this using Google Chrome. It's going to take some adjustment to using but I think it might be nice.

We will see I suppose. Tired. Gnight.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-09-02T02:07:00

2008-09-02T06:10:04Z

I adore Perry Bible Fellowship...

I've got a huge headache right now. I'm glad I got to talk to you before the night was over. I'm happy to have my roomate back. It was nice to buy new games today but I need someone to come play. That is all.

Poor guy? Nah. I wonder what her wish was.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-08-17T04:18:00

2008-08-17T08:22:24Z

I wanted to write something here. I don't know what it was though.

It's a state of mind. It's a state of calm.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-08-15T03:34:00

2008-08-15T07:38:48Z

I'm sure this wont mean much to anyone besides myself...

... but that is a screen shot from Newsbin of my download speed. Yes indeed 3.6MBps makes me a little happy in the pants I wont lie.

That is all.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-08-15T02:46:00

2008-08-15T06:47:58Z

So when you keep a sleep schedule like mine... you tend to watch a lot of movies / tv..

My most recent series was season 1 of Friday Night Lights. I was really impressed... Watch it.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-08-14T02:08:00

2008-08-14T06:08:47Z

Why can't I fucking sleep like a normal goddamn person

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-08-13T00:58:00

2008-08-13T04:59:57Z

The moon hangs trapped alone in the sky
its light so desperately trying to reach us
but its choked away by the thickening clouds
so is my heart

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-08-04T20:17:00

2008-08-05T00:18:13Z

FYI, Avatar: The Last Airbender is a great show.

cpt_kumquat @ 2008-05-27T08:25:00

2008-05-27T12:26:03Z

Why do I feel so utterly betrayed?